Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Keeping Busy

I have been trying to keep busy the past couple of days. I saw my ex this weekend we actually went on a group outing. Well one thing lead to another and well lets just say we reconnected. I swear this happens once a year since we have been broken up. It has taken me a long time to get to the place where I thought I was. I thought I was fine without him and that I could go on with my life. That is not the case when I am around him again. All those old feelings that I thought were gone came rushing back. I don't know how he feels in regards to me but, I am really trying to keep busy because I just don't want to fall back into a dark place especially if he does not want anything to do with me. I am just rambling but I needed a way to express how I feel about the situation which I am not sure how I feel to be honest. What I do know is that I don't want to be played with. If you care show you care and if you don't well, then don't anything towards me. So, I am going to continue to try to keep busy for the rest of the week and try to not even think about it.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Straight Hair


Got my hair blown out a couple weeks ago. I think I am going to get it done again soon but, add some tracks because it not as long as I want it yet. It is a years worth of growth. :)

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

It All Depends On How You Look At It

I feel like writing seeing how I haven't posted anything in a while. The year is coming to a close and I feel like I've improved drastically emotionally and spiritually. I feel like it really starts from the inside. The "It" I am referring to is happiness. For the longest time I have been in search of being happy. I think it is all about how you think and if you think negatively you will feel that way. Also I think important factor is to be appreciative for what you do have. Be appreciative for the people that you have in your life. Be thankful for the friends or people that you spend time with that are present. I don't always have people to hang out with and I only have two friends that I see on a regular basis. Majority of the time it is me, myself, and I and I am completely okay with that. I am thankful for my family even though it is dysfunctional. Not everyday is perfect and I still have days where I will wake up and feel like life sucks. It makes it a lot easier if you try to see the positives that you do have in life.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Strangers, friends, lovers, back to strangers

It's crazy when I think about you now you are just a distant stranger.

Angry heart/ lacking self love

I was really trying to figure out why I have been so angry. I hate when I get pissed because I feel like I just have no control of my emotions. Then I woke up this morning and saw all these inspirational tweets especially by the daily love. They had a post about self love. It really hit home in a way where I feel like that's where a lot of my pent up anger is coming from. Not to say that daily things aren't either but I feel like personal issues are definitely fueling my anger most definitely. So after reading the article this morning I definitely going to put some of their suggestions into action. I've been working on myself for a while but I feel like that was just the beginning. I will post the link it may help others who are dealing with similar issues with self love. I also feel like I am going through some type of transition not completely sure of what but definitely keep y'all posted.


Love & peace