Keeping Busy

I have been trying to keep busy the past couple of days. I saw my ex this weekend we actually went on a group outing. Well one thing lead to another and well lets just say we reconnected. I swear this happens once a year since we have been broken up. It has taken me a long time to get to the place where I thought I was. I thought I was fine without him and that I could go on with my life. That is not the case when I am around him again. All those old feelings that I thought were gone came rushing back. I don't know how he feels in regards to me but, I am really trying to keep busy because I just don't want to fall back into a dark place especially if he does not want anything to do with me. I am just rambling but I needed a way to express how I feel about the situation which I am not sure how I feel to be honest. What I do know is that I don't want to be played with. If you care show you care and if you don't well, then don't anything towards me. So, I am going to continue to try to keep busy for the rest of the week and try to not even think about it.

Think

You can't post everything online y'all it will come and bite you in the ass. Think about it.

Love and peace
~Tiara~

Happiness or Something Like That

This is a weird feeling...I am happy or just content just can't put my finger on it exactly. I have a crush on someone that I work with I guess. I keep trying to tell myself "hey you don't like him" because hopefully if I tell myself I will believe it. He in unattainable at the moment so that is why I have to not like him. This is weird because I haven't had a crush since long ago before I was in a relationship with my first boyfriend which has been over technically two years but officially over and done with nine months ago. I feel like I am ready for the new. I'm not in a super rush but I feel like enough time has passed and I am ready to get back out there. I'm just not sure just how to exactly get back out there lol. I'm so odd. I need to socialize more which is hard because I'm just naturally reclusive but I want to change that little by little so I can really get out and meet Mr. Right. I just want someone who can make me laugh, understand me, be my best-friend and be the icing on the cake in my life. I'm on the hunt now lol.

Love and Peace
~Tiara~

tired of being broke this has to stop...

Relationships

This video really got me thinking. I love all her videos. I really do shut out a lot of potentially great guys because they don't fit the mold or whatever I have made up in my head. I'm definitely going to work on that.