Keeping Busy

I have been trying to keep busy the past couple of days. I saw my ex this weekend we actually went on a group outing. Well one thing lead to another and well lets just say we reconnected. I swear this happens once a year since we have been broken up. It has taken me a long time to get to the place where I thought I was. I thought I was fine without him and that I could go on with my life. That is not the case when I am around him again. All those old feelings that I thought were gone came rushing back. I don't know how he feels in regards to me but, I am really trying to keep busy because I just don't want to fall back into a dark place especially if he does not want anything to do with me. I am just rambling but I needed a way to express how I feel about the situation which I am not sure how I feel to be honest. What I do know is that I don't want to be played with. If you care show you care and if you don't well, then don't anything towards me. So, I am going to continue to try to keep busy for the rest of the week and try to not even think about it.

Straight Hair

  

Got my hair blown out a couple weeks ago. I think I am going to get it done again soon but, add some tracks because it not as long as I want it yet. It is a years worth of growth. :)

It All Depends On How You Look At It

I feel like writing seeing how I haven't posted anything in a while. The year is coming to a close and I feel like I've improved drastically emotionally and spiritually. I feel like it really starts from the inside. The "It" I am referring to is happiness. For the longest time I have been in search of being happy. I think it is all about how you think and if you think negatively you will feel that way. Also I think important factor is to be appreciative for what you do have. Be appreciative for the people that you have in your life. Be thankful for the friends or people that you spend time with that are present. I don't always have people to hang out with and I only have two friends that I see on a regular basis. Majority of the time it is me, myself, and I and I am completely okay with that. I am thankful for my family even though it is dysfunctional. Not everyday is perfect and I still have days where I will wake up and feel like life sucks. It makes it a lot easier if you try to see the positives that you do have in life.

Vashtie Kola talking about her fashion

Strangers, friends, lovers, back to strangers

It's crazy when I think about you now you are just a distant stranger.

Angry heart/ lacking self love

I was really trying to figure out why I have been so angry. I hate when I get pissed because I feel like I just have no control of my emotions. Then I woke up this morning and saw all these inspirational tweets especially by the daily love. They had a post about self love. It really hit home in a way where I feel like that's where a lot of my pent up anger is coming from. Not to say that daily things aren't either but I feel like personal issues are definitely fueling my anger most definitely. So after reading the article this morning I definitely going to put some of their suggestions into action. I've been working on myself for a while but I feel like that was just the beginning. I will post the link it may help others who are dealing with similar issues with self love. I also feel like I am going through some type of transition not completely sure of what but definitely keep y'all posted.

http://thedailylove.com/turn-down-your-negative-voice-–-turn-up-self-love/


Love & peace
Tiara

Wale "Lotus Flower Bomb"

Think

You can't post everything online y'all it will come and bite you in the ass. Think about it.

Love and peace
~Tiara~

Happiness or Something Like That

This is a weird feeling...I am happy or just content just can't put my finger on it exactly. I have a crush on someone that I work with I guess. I keep trying to tell myself "hey you don't like him" because hopefully if I tell myself I will believe it. He in unattainable at the moment so that is why I have to not like him. This is weird because I haven't had a crush since long ago before I was in a relationship with my first boyfriend which has been over technically two years but officially over and done with nine months ago. I feel like I am ready for the new. I'm not in a super rush but I feel like enough time has passed and I am ready to get back out there. I'm just not sure just how to exactly get back out there lol. I'm so odd. I need to socialize more which is hard because I'm just naturally reclusive but I want to change that little by little so I can really get out and meet Mr. Right. I just want someone who can make me laugh, understand me, be my best-friend and be the icing on the cake in my life. I'm on the hunt now lol.

Love and Peace
~Tiara~

My sister she is bad ass!!!!

Her Mohawk is crazy lol

11/12 weekend

Shopping and fun with my friend Ashmita

frozen yogurt yum!!!!

tired after a long day

Ashmita with her smoothie lol

It's Sunday time to relax.

got my nails fixed round is much better on me.

mean muggin

my hair is too big for the hat lol

Last Weekend

Me and my sister before we went out....

I love her :)

Clubbing and getting sick

So this weekend my sister came home to visit. We were trying to figure out what to do. I decided to take her to a club since the last time she went she didn't have fun. We met up with my cousin dani and hit up level 2. Level 2 is a 18+ club which I'm not big on but I had a lot fun. My issue was it was mad hot and people were smoking. I didn't drink because I was designated driver but some how I still ended up getting sick. I still thought it was the heat and smoke til I got home and was sick all night and all Sunday. Food poisoning smh still feeling worn out but much better. My sister had a lot of fun. She was getting it in all night smh. Minus getting sick can't wait to do it all over again.

tired of being broke this has to stop...

Relationships

This video really got me thinking. I love all her videos. I really do shut out a lot of potentially great guys because they don't fit the mold or whatever I have made up in my head. I'm definitely going to work on that.

This past weekend

So this past weekend I went out with my best friend. We went to this nice lounge. I wish had taken more pictures but I was only there for an hour so I was trying to get my money's worth lol. It was fun and I hope I get to out again soon.

Halloween

 

Reeses pieces ....I like this holiday strickly for the sales on the candy

Introduction

Hello My name is Tiara this is my first official blog. I hope you learn about me and enjoy seeing my day to day life and things that interest me.